Thursday, February 22, 2007

Dealing with the block

Its 10.21 AM, Friday—the last working day of the week. I sit at my desk in the office and have opened a New Microsoft Word document to scribble something as I work on the other server. The server response is slow and I am using its slowed down speed to my advantage, praying that it does not come up for another at least half an hour. (Making use of official resources for personal things you can say. A sin, is it? ) But I don’t want to miss this now. Coz I know how difficult it is to regain this disposition and gather myself for writing again. It would mean another half a year at least. I just got a sudden realization 10 minutes back. This piece of writing is an upshot of the same. It has been long since I wanted to enter this world of Blogs and have been postponing it for no reason.

I used to take pride in the fact that people are egging me on to start blogging. I had got a sort of a smug glow of self-congratulation.
I could literally feel some air passing through my neck towards my head with the feeling that people want to read what I might be writing and that they are curious about what I would write.

Nah nah.. don’t think I am writing this so that people get an opportunity read it. On the contrary, I write this to just get myself out of this false image of mine in my mind. So, actually it’s ok if no one reads it or gives me no comments. This is just so that I get out of this habit of procrastinating things without any good reason.